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It was October when he left me. Afterwards I was in a state of shock, a state of not knowing how to keep living without him. He was my light in the darkness. He was the reason why I lived. He was everything to me. I spent every day with him, I spent every night with him. And now I miss him every day and every night. It's not the same without him. I depended on him and he just left. Why? Why do I deserve to be left like this? Whenever our paths cross, he ignores me and treats me completely differently than he did before. Am I not important anymore? Did the love he felt leave? Did he ever love me? I miss him so much and I feel so pathetic and weak for feeling this way when he doesn't even care about me. He was my angel. My angel who just left me and went away. He was the only one I wanted to love me. Now I have to go on without him but I just can't. I can't live without him. I don't know how, I feel like such a fool. I want him to come back but I know that it will never happen. I will never be able to look in those loving eyes. Look at me I beg every time but he just won't. Come back to me. How can I live on? But he just ignores me. Like I mean nothing to him. He used to be my angel. I feel like dying without him. I can't sleep at night because whenever I close my eyes I see his lovely face. I can't do anything without him. I can't live anymore. I just can't. I should let go.
Goodbye, my angel.

So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day)
I can still hear your voice
Come back to me (I don’t have anyone) Come back to my side (but you)
You’re like an angel

I am your guardian angel

seho | ~1.7k | fluff, a little angst?

I promised you to be there for you and I will. Always. I am your guardian angel, don't you know?


It's been a year. Exactly one year since his death. Time went by so fast, for Sehun it felt rather like a few weeks, maybe even just a few days. Everyone was moving on with their lives, but Sehun was still stuck in that moment he found out about his death. It was a car accident. How ironic, he always used to be such a careful driver. Sehun couldn't understand why it had to happen. He asked himself everyday why it had to happen. Why him? Why had it to happen to a person he loved so much that he actually wanted to spend the rest of his life with this person? He is... was so precious. So gentle and friendly. Perfect on the inside and on the outside. Sehun had never met such a kind person before. Every time he thought of his sincere smile that was able to brighten every dark corner of his life, he had to start crying. Even though he told himself not to, he couldn't prevent at least one tear from escaping his eye. He had told everyone that he was alright, that he would be fine in a few months and would start living his life normally again. But he just couldn't. How could anyone be able to not think of the person they loved on a daily basis? Especially when they have lost the person they love in such a tragic kind of way? He was the one who saved him from the darkness and it seemed like he was also the reason he fell back into the darkness. I thought you were my guardian angel... Sehun couldn't help but also feel a little angry. He came into his life, changing everything, and he left his life, changing everything again. It was confusing how one person could change everything in your life. Especially Sehun's life. Sehun had never thought that that was even possible. Before they had met, Sehun used to be a very pessimistic person. He was frustrated and depressed 24/7. He hated his job, he wasn't really close to any of his friends and he didn't keep in touch with his family. He was a lonely person. He rarely went out. While all his collegues from work were having a blast, he would stay home, watch TV, read or just sleep early. He didn't know what happiness was until Sehun saw him. They met at a coffee shop.


"Chocolate coffee's ready!" the barista announced. Sehun went to the counter to grab the steaming bevarage, but someone seemed to have the same idea as him and their hands touched. Sehun lifted his head up to look into a handsome face decorated with a soft smile and warm eyes looking back at him.
"I think this is mine." said the man standing next to him, Sehun's hand was still resting over the other one's. In that moment the barista behind the counter brought another cup of chocolate coffee.
"And here's the second one!" the young barista exclaimed with a wink and was off doing another coffee.
"Oh..." mumbled Sehun, blushing as he removed his hand. He grabbed the other cup, the temperature of the drink soothing its way into his left hand. "I'm sorry."
"Oh, it's fine, really." replied the man with a gentle smile. "It's no wonder we both ordered a chocolate coffee, they're the best sort of coffee anyways." he laughed a little and took a sip from his drink, closing his eyes and audibly liking the taste of it.